HGTG

It is important to note that suddenly, and against all probability, a Sperm Whale had been called into existence, several miles above the surface of an alien planet and since this is not a naturally tenable position for a whale, this innocent creature had very little time to come to terms with its identity. This is what it thought, as it fell:The Whale: Ahhh! Woooh! What’s happening? Who am I? Why am I here? What’s my purpose in life? What do I mean by who am I? Okay okay, calm down calm down get a grip now. Ooh, this is an interesting sensation. What is it? Its a sort of tingling in my… well I suppose I better start finding names for things. Lets call it a… tail! Yeah! Tail! And hey, what’s this roaring sound, whooshing past what I’m suddenly gonna call my head? Wind! Is that a good name? It’ll do. Yeah, this is really exciting. I’m dizzy with anticipation! Or is it the wind? There’s an awful lot of that now isn’t it? And what’s this thing coming toward me very fast? So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like ‘Ow’, ‘Ownge’, ‘Round’, ‘Ground’! That’s it! Ground! Ha! I wonder if it’ll be friends with me? Hello Ground![dies] Curiously the only thing that went through the mind of the bowl of petunias, as it fell, was, ‘Oh no, not again.’ Many people have speculated that if we knew exactly *why* the bowl of petunias had thought that we would know a lot more about the nature of the universe than we do now.

90 Orbits Around the Sun

What Drives Me

I do not fear death. I’ve been dead billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.

Most people are never going to die because they are never going to be born. The potential people who could have been here in my place, but in-fact will never see the light of day, out number the sand grains of Sahara. Certainly, those unborn ghosts include greater musicians than Beethoven, actors better than Kevin Spacey. We know this because the set of possible people massively out number the set of actual people. In the teeth of these stupefying odds, it is you and I in our ordinariness that are here. We privileged few who won the lottery of birth against all odds, how dare we whine about are inevitable return to that prior state from the vast majority have never stirred.

Be Happy, Edwin

Hi! Edwin, This is Edwin from the past. I want you know that I love you. No matter whatever happens to you, I want you to be happy. You might not be able to agree with me now, because you might think this is the Mt. Everest of it all. Hmm.. You might be right on that one.

Let me remind you some silly things:

Remember that red-oxide floor you crawled on? You looked afar across the room, and it was really far to reach the other end of the room. Well, Look at you now! How far off you have travelled out of that little room. People grow out their little limitations Edwin, they grow up to achieve great things which no man has ever achieved before, and they grow old in peace and die. That is the what this dream is all about. So make sure you hold on tight until the ride ends on its own. Don’t quit on your own, Please I beg of you! Because there is a good chance, given the way universe is, to always end up at a better position that what you are in now.

Remember those shiny things on the beach sand while you walked holding two hands? You used to think, those shiny things where stars that fell off from the sky! HAHA.. you were so naive! Well, you know they are mica now, but that has not killed the wonder and awe you have. You see.. you wonder at greater things now. Like you now know for instance that we are all dust on a pale blue dot in an ordinary corner of the universe.

Never be afraid that God will punish you Edwin. If there is a God then he wouldn’t watch while little girls get raped to death. If there is such a God then there is no need for Evil to exist independently. BUT Be very afraid of people and their dirty tricks, Edwin. Most people you are scared of, are one-trick ponies. They simply use what others have tried on their victims and worked. SO get to know their tricks and empathize with what it would feel like to be the victim, so that you will be able to resist them.

Resisting is an art and hard. You might feel like giving up. You are only human. There are buttons that can pressed in you that can release powerful emotions and fear that could make you act in an irrational way. I’d suggest you give in if you can’t bear with it. And stop reading this now, and read it later.But if it just doubts that you have. I can assure there have been times when you really knew for real that reason is right. You shouldn’t give up on that.

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Wrong Time

Seems like it is the wrong time to be in the Devdas mode. I must keep up with the current state of reality because it is totally indifferent to my struggles. So instead of being mushy, and seeking the help of imaginary friends in the sky I must move on.

I must look into the intersection of Constraint Satisfaction Problems and Cellular Automata. CSPs can be easily be parallelized on CAs and Self Timed Cellular Automatas (STCAs) with a zillion times speed ups over conventional Turing Machines. If a CA based Constraint Solver which has the ability to model every constraint (a.k.a universal) can be found, that may be the holy grail of Computational Biology.

I ask myself to develop a Tangrams Solver first. It will give me an idea of how -ary constraints get implemented in spatial problems. Then general constraints experienced by each of the 20 amino acids in various pH values must be deduced by using automatic methods from the large amounts of experimentally verified protein structure data.

In both the Tangrams solver and in proteins, the constituent components are not related to a central sign post. Instead they are related to each other. Hence if there are components, they will be related to each other through binary constraints. These constraints would range from certain spatial ones that enforce steric hindrances to coloumb forces and non-coloumb forces like hydrogen bonds.

Once the solver is implemented on a CA, Hashlife like algorithms can take over and accelerate computation to astronomical speeds.

A Brief History Of My Agnosticism

I went from Agnostic to Atheism by virtue of realizing that atheists are keenly aware that our lives is a one-shot deal. It should be embraced and improved for all fellow travelers on this brief trip. That would negate flying planes into buildings and holding bigotry and zelotry as a sanctioned outcome from religion. That’s when I made the leap anyway. That and I’m kind of big on empirical methods. The idea that something is above testing or debate of any kind is beyond fathomable. Besides being a waste of time, money and resources – it’s just myopic and takes away from appreciating what you have for it’s brief and short and beautiful lifespan. The rest is just social biology in terms of morals. The golden rule applies double when you’ve got one shot at the program. Plus any social animal will only survive from the power of the group and certainly one can always do better if you play well with others than attack everyone else.

Hmm.. I should start blogging again

Blogging has helped in the past to know myself. I should start doing it again. Or else I will suffer. Too bad those christian fanatics at home planned to have my thoughts erased. It did not work. But I did the lose the most important day of my life December 28th 11:00 AM.Current situation: I met her. She is beautiful. I sent flowers and she dumped me. Extremely sad. Has sent her many SMSes and tried to contact her. But she is not replying. She says she thought of me as a friend. But I can’t still see how she wanted to meet me. And how she gave me her address.This universe has done marvelous things for me by saving this wordpress backup from deletion. Thank you.

I am not easy, but I am still human.

I do not like it when I am considered naive. But I play along to see how far it goes. Sometimes I make it easy for the cat to find the ball, because I have more important ones hid far deep within. Some take pride in making me fall for something everyone would fall for. They lie to me, as if I wouldn’t know. They dodge direct questions, break patterns. They try to send me thinking about the underlying meanings of their meaningless words, hoping to confuse me. But little do they know, I have seen most of it. I am not immune to brainwashing, but I know that. I know there are buttons that can be pressed within me that can release powerful emotions that can make me act irrationally and uncivilized. What can I say, I am only human. If there is a reason why I like play naive, it is because I want people to be easy around me. I want them to be free to discuss about everything from the forced blow-job they had to suffer giving their husband to the little evil that lurks in their mind. And they do discuss such things with me. For those who do not, I can be sure they are like me, and those are the people I must be more naive for. It is OK if they don’t crack, time can crack anything.